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36:45 minutes on the treadmill, 2.39 miles, running, sweating, side cramps = 1 sausage, egg and cheese mcgriddle. Delicious, but TOTALLY not worth it. (Calories 550, Fat 33, Sat Fat 11, Sodium 1290mg, Cholesterol 260mg, Carbs 43)

It’s two days later and I am still recovering from working off one of the two mcgriddles I had on Tuesday morning.  Yesterday, I couldn’t move.  I came up to the coffee shop briefly but other than that, I was laying on the couch or in my bed the rest of the day.  Correction, I got up to fix dinner and take to boy up to the high school to look into sports programs for the upcoming year.  I complained about the pain in my legs the entire time.  The boy is sick of hearing about it but I’m suffering!! 

While we were up at the school, I was struck by nostalgia.  This is my alma matter and my boy is going to be attending there next year.  We went to the theater and sat down for a brief presentation on the schools sports programs overall and then were sent off to various areas of the school to find out more about the specific sport we were interested in which for us was soccer.  While we were there, I pointed out to him that I had been in a musical on that very stage.  I also pointed out a few coaches that were still there from my days and a few other things that had changed or remained the same.  He mostly sighed at me and rolled his eyes.  I also warned him about how seniors used to try to tell the freshman how to gain access to the 3rd floor swimming pool and not to fall for that one, if they still try to pull it.  There is no 3rd floor.

It’s difficult to believe that he’s old enough to be in high school already and over the last 12 hours I have been alternately fantasizing about knitting things in the blue-on-blue for sporting events (hats, gloves, scarves) and pondering how the next 4 years are going to go.  The high school years can be extremely difficult for some teenagers to get through and I want him to be a success which makes me wonder what I can do to help him in that.  For the majority of his academic career, I have been married to whatever job I was holding and have not had the time or energy to put into extra curricular activities such as sports, PTA and that kind of crap.  Now, I’m wondering what kind of job I can find that will allow me the time to be more supportive and authoritative when necessary so that he can get the most out of these next 4 years.  I don’t seem to be able to balance both career and home as well as some mothers.  It is only lately that this has become more apparent as I have had the time to consider dinner options and prepare said meals and make sure we attend the school events.  I’m sorry to say that he could most likely have been more involved in things with his middle school had I had the time/energy.  Regardless, I am determined to do better by him until he graduates high school.  How do I do this?  Part-time work would be ideal, but it won’t pay enough to sustain us.  Extra curricular activities cost.  Something to keep working on in my head until I find the solution that suits the both of us for sure!  I have come to the conclusion that a week at home then a week at his dad’s and the back and forth no longer appears to be the best arrangement.  I must come to a new agreement with his father.  Sigh.  Time for the quarterly parental dinner meeting.