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So I just read a book by a fellow blogger about her divorce and subsequent fall into despair and rescue by knitting.  There are several things that strike me about this experience but I will only entertain you with a few.

1.  It really seems like it wouldn’t be all that difficult to write a book.  Her chapters were brief at best and the only real theme was “finding herself”.  Who among us hasn’t embarked upon THAT rite of passage at one point or another?  Sometimes more than once!
2.  It made me reflect upon my love life a little bit more than I was prepared to do right now.  I also am a divorcee but was no where near as devastated by it as she was.  Dating on the other hand has been a much less successful venture for me.  I am currently in a relationship that is going nowhere.  Sometimes, this is what is desired.  Why suffer through pressures of needing to be involved in something that is “going somewhere”?  I have very many other pressures right now, the last thing I need is to stress about love.  I do love him and I truly believe that he loves me back.  On the other hand, what I dream about is to have a married life with the one man that wants to spend the rest of his life with me and adore me forever.  Through thick and thin.  Honestly, right now, it feels like this relationship is being sabotaged by one or both of us.  It doesn’t feel like it was meant to be.  If I’m spending more time with my knitting girls than the man in my life, something doesn’t quite add up.
3. Do people really care to hear about a lone bloggers’ life and her reflections on love, wine and her cats?  It makes me want to see how much this book sold to see exactly how popular such a thing is.  I just keep getting stuck on, “if she can do it, so can I”. 

I have actually been spending most of my time recently watching TV and knitting.  I have been obsessed with the series ‘24′ and the life of one Jack Bauer.  This worked out very well for me because I had in my hot little hands the first 6 seasons of the hit show and lots of projects to create before Christmas.  The downside?  There are several really. 

1.  I’ve watched all 6 seasons and now I have no clue what to do with myself.  It’s almost as if there never ever has been anything else to do with my time. 

2.  I’ve spent so much time on my couch knitting that I am now winded just by walking up the street to Amanda’s house.  she lives 3 houses away.  I fear I have never been so out of shape and it is so very very depressing.

3.  I now maybe should marry Jack Bauer instead of James Hetfield?  It’s all so confusing!!

4.  I NEED A JOB

Sigh.

It’s a Wednesday in early December and I sit here after having spent quality time on the hunt for the perfect job waiting for the snow to start.  This year, I am determined to have a white Christmas.  It just always makes the day so much more special.  Not that anything could keep it from being an important day, snow just makes it that much better.  I’m told the weather today will allow for snow but there are no guarantees that we’ll be getting any.  I say BRING IT ON!  This is my favorite time of year.  Not because of the holidays though they are a wonderful time filled with family, good foods and presents but because of the weather.  Even though the heat is on me right now to acquire a position that pays, I am still blissfully happy with life as it is.  I have an amazing family, I have great friends and it’s going to snow today!!!!!

Last week we celebrated Thanksgiving.  This year, the boy wasn’t able to make it as it was his week with his father but Mom and Dad allowed us to invite an outsider to our humble little meal and thus Katie was inducted into the family.  She has been welcomed into the fold with open arms such that I have not seen given to anyone else that isn’t blood related and I couldn’t be happier.  Obviously, I wish the perfect man was in my life and attending family events with me but that being not the case at this time, I much prefer that it be Katie that is brought into the fold.  We all went around the table saying what we were thankful for, Bill made funnies, Mom had pies ready, there was some napping and some reminiscing about family traditions and holidays.  Overall it was a wonderful day.

OMG!!!  I see that it is in fact snowing now!!!  I must wrap things up here so I can go home and snuggle in with my jammies, blankets, James puppy, my knitting and season 3 of ‘24′.