1. Animals have thoughts too, you just need April to express them for you.
2. It doesn’t matter if anyone else thinks it’s funny, you’re making yourself laugh and that’s all that matters.
3. Bill Miller is one of the best men I know.
4. How to make the best carrot cake EVER! Ok, so I haven’t learned this one yet and that’s because I’d eat nothing but the carrot cake and become enormous.
5. Dropping by Mom and Dad’s house and hanging out for a while is actually fun.
6. Working with everyone you are related to at one time or another can actually be done.
7. No other friend will ever be as strong of a supporter.
8. My bad qualities are actually rather funny if you look at them the right way!
9. How to drive.
10. Sister Time is vital to ones sanity.
I consider myself “good people” but I think almost everyone considers themselves in this same light. I’d like to talk to the person that considers themselves “bad people”. I can honestly say that in the grand scheme of things, I am good. I don’t steal, I don’ t lie, I don’t kill, I have a good heart towards animals if not humans, I want the best for my family and close friends. I can also say though that I am too dependent on my parents, I don’t pay my bills, I don’t like people in general and usually want their offspring to run themselves into a wall, I can’t stand it when people think that I want to hear about what they ate for dinner or how they feel about things, I really do prefer to nap over just about any activity, I will cut you off on the highway if you’re driving like an idiot and I have somewhere to go. So I suppose I am torn between believing that I am good and the sense that I should be better. I have no guilt, I do not feel bad about the lack of compassion and empathy.
What I do feel bad about is the taxation on my family. I love them. I would do almost anything for any one of them (though I think they are unaware of this). They make me want to pay my bills, I just psychologically am unable to. This makes not a whole lot of sense to me because I know what I need to do with my money but I just physically, mentally, emotionally am unable. I currently owe my parents for something and they saved me from being devastated but at the same time, I do not have the money to pay them back. I have not discussed this with them yet as I am so ashamed of being the let down that I am, that I try to avoid this conversation at all costs. And anyone that knows me even a tad bit knows that I don’t shy away from conventionally uncomfortable situations. I look forward to the day that they no longer need to rally and save me, yet I have no idea how to make that day come.
This makes me want to cry, and not many things have that affect on me. I’m a cold, hard person. Maybe I’m sentimental right now because my best friends father died this morning and I am still reeling from that news. He was an amazing man and I feel honored to have known him. I cannot fathom what she is going through right now and I cannot stop thinking how very blessed I am to have my family so close to me if not in physical proximity, then at the least in spirit.
Good things are abundant in my life and I am grateful for them everyday, but maybe more so today. I am a good person.
And you thought I was kidding.
So my dear friend is getting two new kitties today and I am absolutely green with envy. Not that there needs to be more pets in my household, OH NO. Two dogs, two cats, a hamster and a 12 year old boy are more that I currently have room for as it is. But still, who doesn’t want to adopt more kitties?!?!! I wish I had the space. But she does and she has been planning, and hunting, and shopping, and cleaning and has finally settled on the two brothers that are going to come home with her this evening. She is now telling me that she went out last night and got some supplies and has cleaned out a closet in her apartment that is now dubbed “the kitten closet” so that they can have a space of their own and have the proper introduction into her home and to her Gracie. I can’t wait to go over and meet them!! Gracie doesn’t typically want to have anything to do with me, let alone allow me in the same room so I have high hopes that these two boys will feel differently about me.
She has decided that two more will put her at her cat limit therefore not pushing her into the “crazy cat lady” phase of her life too early and I agree. I at one point had 3 cats and I feel no shame in that. Even though she is sort of the office cat lady already as they have named her “Katiecat” because of her abundance of love for the felines. This however is out of respect I believe because they have also nick named her “Katie Leads” which just cracks me up. (Her real name - Katie Leas. She spent quality years here at Gragg scrubbing leads in the system before finally being promoted to Supervisor.)
I tell you, even in the most stressful times, this is the best place to work. We have an amazing group here, including our resident cat lady.
As I’m paying for my morning coffee at (gag) QuickTrip this morning, I am struck by the fellow next to me in line. He held the door for me like a true gentleman would and that was all there was to it. We happened to pull out of the parking lot at the same time and also happened to be headed down the highway in the same general direction but again; no contact beyond a glance and a “thank you”.
My head however, proceeded to carry on a relationship with him all my merry way to work. I had him wondering about me in his truck on his way to work and even wondering if we’d exit at the same time. I of course lost sight of him almost immediately and I feel quite content with that now considering I’d be a little more than crazy to stalk a stranger’s truck all the way down the highway. There have been occasions on my way to work where I noticed a particularly good driver and kept them in my sights all the way to my destination. Or the times where there’s that one Jack that is a terrible driver yet somehow still manages to keep up with me. These are not considered highway stalkings if you ask my opinion.
I personally chalk this up to the extreme levels of stress at work right now. I think that I somehow needed to not obsess about the job all the way to work so in my own special way, I came up with something else to think about!! But who out there hasn’t had one of those moments, and I DARE you to deny it, where you see a complete stranger that you’ll never cross paths with again (or wouldn’t know it if you did) but at that moment, they make your heart skip a beat for no reason?
So once again I find myself loitering at the coffee shop. I have moved on from LatteLand (Starbucks before that) to a quaint little spot closer to home, A Cup Above. I like the people that work here a lot more than any of the stuffies at the other places. The only thing is, they seem to have quite a booming business and there are frequently loud bunches of people in here distracting me from whatever book I’m trying to read. I do still enjoy it more here than the others but come on…
I had Friday off of work so it has been an extended weekend and I have thoroughly enjoyed it. I am sad though that it’s already Sunday. That means tomorrow I have to return to work and all that entails. I refuse to let the panic hit me before 5 this evening so I think I will quit talking about it so early in the day.
Yesterday, I drove all over Kansas on a quest of Katie’s to get a new kitty. I started my day with just a nice quiet coffee but ended up spending the whole day away from home. I think I finally got back home last night around 8. It was a fun day though. I can’t say I’d have done anything other than nap if I’d have stayed home. Our first stop was the Humane Society. They have some adorable kitties there that should all come home with me. It is a good thing that they don’t do same day adoptions or I would have yet another animal living with me as we speak. We then aimed the car towards where we assumed the lady was telling us the Petsmart was located. After much driving around and Katie using what I assume was Google maps to figure out where we were, we landed at the Legends. This proved to be a good thing as I found a very well priced Kathy purse that is now mine and she found a VERY cute laptop bag that is also now mine!! By the time the shopping was done, Katie had found directions to where we needed to go next so back to the car we went. The Petsmart only had about 5 cats available and they were all too old. Not that we don’t want to rescue them as well, but Katie has a cat already “Gracie” and is in the market for a new friend that Gracie can either raise her way or that she can tell will be a good fit. Anyway, then it was lunch and back on the road for who knew what. We just aimed for what direction we thought home would be in. By this time, I was ready for some pampering in the form of a manicure and pedicure. But Katie was firm in her quest and don’t you know we came upon another Petsmart on our way towards the Northland?? So we stopped there and spent quality time snuggling with some kitties and I with a handsome puppy. Time came to investigate their adoption process we found out that the two women manning the table were evil, rude women. Well, one was worse than the other. Their process is very difficult to maneuver and not worth it considering the person you have to deal with. After a stop at Target to acquire flipppyfloppys, we found our manny peddy destination and settled in for some beauty time. I even got fake nails!! These are things I have preached against. I honestly don’t know what got into me. But so far I don’t regret them 100% yet. One more stop at a creepy cat rescue place still in Kansas, and I had to wait in the car. Those people made me want to bathe, run a marathon and sweat it out, then bathe again. That kind of creepy that you’re worried you might get some on you.
Finally the last stop was at Houlihan’s back in the Northland for a couple of relaxing martini’s then back home for bed. That’s more than I do in any other weekend my friends. I’m usually home all day doing absolutely nothing so you may understand why I have given you such details of my day. Anyway, need to consume the rest of my coffee or go home and nap, one of the two.